Here I am... | bubblynng08's Blog
Today my sister is getting married. I was supposed to be her maid of honor it was supposed to be a big family event...correction...it is a big family event...just without me in it...here I am in a wheelchair, deaf, and full of cancer...wondering how the wedding is going...if any of my family members miss me...or if they even notice that I'm not there with them...in my country a wedding is celebrated for 3 days and everyone knows about it even complete strangers celebrate and congratulate with you.
Strangers are at my sister's wedding...but not me...they're celebrating...and here I am in misery...don't get me wrong I'm happy for my sister I really am...I just wish I could've been there with her...in happy bliss all glowing and seeing her all in white...but here I am seeing red deep almost black red in my hands dripping from my nose and coming from my mouth...I should be dancing the night away...yet here I am with no feeling in my legs...and no sound coming into my ears...
My sister got married today right now she is celebrating and it's the happiest day of her life...and here I am not part of it...my sister has a bright new future ahead of her as of today nothing but happy thoughts in her mind...yes I glad for my sister...yet here I am with death looming ever closer to me with every drip of blood that I see coming out of me...
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